Je suis malade

Je ne rêve plus
Je ne fume plus
Je n'ai même plus d'histoire
Je suis sale sans toi
Je suis laide sans toi
Comme une orpheline dans un dortoir
Je n'ai plus envie
De vivre ma vie
Ma vie cesse quand tu pars
Je n'ai plus de vie
Et même mon lit
Se transforme en quai de gare
Quand tu t'en vas...
Je suis malade
Complètement malade
Comme quand ma mère sortait le soir
Et qu'elle me laissant seule avec mon désespoir
Je suis malade
Parfaitement malade
T'arrive on ne sait jamais quand
Tu repars on ne sait jamais où
Et ça va faire bientôt deux ans
Que tu t'en fous...
Comme à un rocher
Comme à un péché
Je suis accroché à toi
Je suis fatiguée, je suis épuisée
De faire semblant d'être heureuse
Quand ils sont là
Je bois toutes les nuits
Mais tous les whiskys
Pour moi ont le même goût
Et tous les bateaux
Portent ton drapeau
Je ne sais plus où aller tu es partout...
Je suis malade
Complètement malade
Je verse mon sang dans ton corps
Et je suis comme un oiseau mort
Quand toi tu dors
Je suis malade
Parfaitement malade
Tu m'as privée de tous mes chants
Tu m'as vidée de tous mes mots
Pourtant moi j'avais du talent
Avant ta peau...
Cet amour me tue
Si ça continue
Je crèverai seule avec moi
Près de ma radio
comme un gosse idiot
j'écouterai ta propre propre voix qui me chantera...
Je suis malade
Complètement malade
Comme quand ma mère sortait le soir
Et qu'elle me laissait seule avec mon désespoir
Je suis malade
c'est ça je suis malade
Tu m'as privée de tous mes chants
Tu m'as vidée de tous mes mots
Et j'ai le coeur complètement malade
Cerné de barricades
T'entends... Je suis malade...

Corruption

is it only me , or every body can see that we have a serious corruption problem in our society?. I'm nothing talking about corruption among politician of powerful people, this class is corrupted every where, so we are not exception. but I'm talking about the corruption among ordinary people, people like you or me, people we meet and deal with in daily basis.... cheating and lying are the new principle or you may call it the new code of conduct in doing business!!! and its becoming the role and the honest is the exception!!!. when you try to tell some one this is not right, he say come'on don't be so tight, you are an old school!!!. well I'm proud of belonging to the so called old school and i can say with confident that my principles still valid and my word still count for something to those who deal with me.

i think the main reason behind this phenomena which spreading till the roots of our relations is the lake of a law governing the relations among people. and the lake of strong authority putting this low into force. so lets stop talking about changing the roads, building or the city face. and lets start changing and rebuilding ourselves first otherwise we are just wasting the resources of the new generations.

so until some miracle happen, here is a free advice, if you go to buy anything put in your consideration that 99 % the seller will try to cheat you and no matter how careful you are you'll be cheated you like it or not... simply this the role......

And here it comes the snow:

It has been for a while since the last time I have seen real snow which I like so much. Well, this week my luck changed, I walkup early in the morning to find everything is covered with a blanket of white. It was unbelievable and I was so excited J. The hotel guy told me this is the first time they have snow in England this year. I was so delighted so I spent about 2 hours walking under the falling snow. It was quite a sensation seeing all that white and feeling the cold refreshment. It just made my day J

A Libyan girl....

Being involved in business normally I come cross allot of people in the local banking industry which is far way of the international stranded's of this industry. Any way, may be this will be the subject of some future post. so with this stone ages banking system my paths crossed with the paths of a Libyan girl, and guess what, she is a bank branch manager. She took this position around 6 or 7 months ago and for me being a customer of that bank for a couple of years now, I had the chance of seeing her in the line of duty. I could easily see the difference. In fact any body can see the difference. She is so efficient, so organised, so respectful and the most important of them all she has what it takes to lead a business.
I've been so impressed by her ability to stay calm, to lead a carless staff and to manage to have things done the way it should be in a very stressful environment. Frankly speaking, the first day she arrived I said to myself, oh god, that's it , I'm taking my money some where else. Because I've been so disappointed with the inefficiency of the two mangers ( men) proceeded her. In fact I waited for her until one day she did a mistake ( in fact on of her staff). So I told her, girl, that's it, give me my money , I'm done doing business with your bank. Even she was new at that time, some way she convinced me to change my mind. I'm sure her salary is nothing, I'm sure she has personnel financial problems like anybody else, but still she showed a high level of responsibility in protecting her bank interests. Which is something I count it for her.
Usually I drop by 2 or 3 times a month to take care of my stuff and Just watching her conduct the business is a pure joy for the eye.

Did I forget to mention that she is young and pretty as well…..

Libyan girls, some of you are an examples to follow….

Little things that counts....

little things that could bring the joy to my heart:


- A company of a true friend.
- A smile on my mother face.
- A well done deal.
- Keeping a promise.
- Having the ability to help.
- Having the courage to change.
- Airplanes and airports.

little things they are , yet they affect me a great deal. ........

Journey of life

its so empty, and its so cold wondering in the dark reaching out for a ray of light. trying to make the next step , the next move, the next decision. it has been along way and its so hard to stay focus while trying to make the next jump.......... so help me god.

2008 ........